Rehoming

Feeling heartbroken today. I’ve always loved cats and we finally moved into a place where it is possible to have one. We got the most beautiful kitten who has such a gentle temperament, and is loving and affectionate. Unfortunately my partner has severe allergies and couldn’t be in the same room with him for long.…

It’s my anger

Went for my six monthly hospital visit today to have my pessary changed for my prolapsed uterus. It is invasive and triggering for me. I leave feeling low. It takes me to deep and dark places, bringing up all the powerlessness, helplessness, anger, pain, sadness, and badness that I’ve suffered. Today even more so because…

My inner child needs me

A very good friend reminded me today of what I needed to do. Just sit and be with myself and listen quietly. And the answers will come she said. And I did and they did. All the rushing about, the pushing, the straining, the achieving, be better, work harder, be a better teacher and be…

Playing the role

No inspiring quotes today. Nagging discomfort… less than myself.  I am in a dark place where I shut myself off to protect me. Distant from the people I once felt close to. Yelling so much at my son, the mornings are the worst, the rush the stress. We are always on time yet some mornings…

Life’s a struggle

Not sure what’s going on at the moment, but life feels like a huge struggle right now. I haven’t been well, have had what feels like a head cold for weeks. I wake up feeling tired and small tasks like walking up the stairs leave me breathless. A constant headache shadows my days and nights.…

Beautiful Barcelona

Have just got back from a trip to sunny Barcelona and wanted to share my thoughts and experiences with you. I didn’t have great expectations of this trip and really I thought it would be too crowded and too hot at this time of the year. I was pleasantly surprised in so many ways. Our…