Journey to Stonehenge

My journey to Stonehenge began with an early morning train ride from London Waterloo station to Salisbury. I love Waterloo; the busyness that is so contagious, I find myself quickening my pace whenever I am within its confines. I love people- watching as I wait for my train to arrive. The station holds within it…

Pausing….

…..and doing what’s best for me Lately I’ve found myself pausing when confronted with choices. Little and big choices. I pause and think about how to respond. I reflect on how convenient it really is for me. On how the decision will affect me. My aunt asked if she could come over next Friday. I…

A quiet passion

It’s unusual for me to have so much time to myself and I am finally relaxing into it. My son has gone away for two weeks with his dad. At first, I felt a nagging emptiness and discomfort but I am settling into the silence. Spreading myself into it and seeing where it takes me.…

Heartless or Heartful

I woke up feeling so much sadness today. I dreamt of my mother. I was in a care home and she came to see me. How ironic really. My mum is unwell, she was diagnosed with lupus and has just done an MRI scan after blood tests revealed a possible neurological problem. She is depressed…

A Song for you

I wanted to share this song with you. I watched a beautiful arthouse film called “My Life as a Courgette” It’s a touching French film about a young boy, nicknamed, “Courgette’ by his alcoholic and neglectful mother. He is placed in a children’s home surrounded by children who have suffered all kinds of trauma at…

Who are you talking to?

In my session today, my counsellor made me aware of situations where things on the outside could be going directly to the little girl within. Times when the words I hear could be felt from a place of lack and hunger for acceptance and love. The adult me knows rationally and cognitively how I think…

Self-punishment

I haven’t been on here a while and as happens with life, so much has transpired in the space that I have been away. Many times, I have thought of what I would write and post here for you to read, but instead I have immersed myself in the front seat and haven’t spent long…