Last night I did the unspeakable
I was angry and in my anguish I asked God why?
why me God?
why was I born into a family that would hurt and emotionally handicap me for life
why did you allow my father to force himself on me when I was too little to fight back
why didn’t you make my mother stand up for me
why did you let me grow up with shame
and make simple things so complex for me
why didn’t you at least let me find a man who wouldn’t hurt me more
I am alone now and struggling through it all