Today I feel that all too familiar feeling trying to take hold of me. The darkness. What does the darkness feel like? It feels heavy and sad! It tries to wash over me and colour my thoughts and feelings until I am in a very small place. I know this feeling. When this feeling takes…
Maya Angelou was a phenomenal woman. She was sexually abused at a very young age. She stopped speaking for five years after the abuse. When she reclaimed her voice, she went on to become a renowned poet, prolific writer, singer, dancer and inspiration to millions of women around the world. Listen to her poem below:…
Growing up I was never allowed to express my anger. It was too’ un-lady like’ and just not appropriate! I swallowed the words I should have said, squeezing them tightly between my legs. Instead, I sometimes banged kitchen cupboards, pots and pans when I was asked to help out and the rest of the time…
Today I just wanted to share this amazing Ted talk by Brene Brown and say thank you to all the women I have met through this blog. Women who inspire me greatly, and restore my faith in hope and love daily. It’s incredible that the women survivors who have lived through such darkness are able…
One of the many deleterious effects of childhood sexual abuse is the kind of relationships that adult survivors establish. Sexual abuse occurs within a relationship and there is no surprise then that all later relationships will be riddled with problems. Because of wounded attachment, survivors, therefore, sadly and usually subconsciously, seek out relationships in which…
I used to have a second skin of shame that walked with me wherever I went, making me feel bad and responsible for things I didn’t do. I was self-conscious and uncomfortable in my very skin! I am now confronting the past in all its messiness and pain. It is such hard hard work…
Things I want to do before I am forty! Travel to a foreign city alone Run the London Marathon Volunteer at a centre for women who are survivors of abuse and domestic violence Finish the novel I have started to write Get my driver’s licence Have a healthy romantic relationship free of abuse and codependency…
An old fart starting over before he's a dead fart!
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Writing about the psychodynamic process as it happens in my quest to heal from childhood trauma, attachment issues and a Narcissistic mother.
