My mantra ever since I started meditating regularly has been, “Nothing stays the same, Everything is always changing!” I repeat this truth over and over when my eyes are closed.
I practise a form of insight meditation called Vipassana in which you close your eyes and sit with all the sensations and thoughts that come up. You focus on the different parts of your body as you meditate and sweep your focus across your body from head to toe repeatedly. The idea is that you remain neutral to all sensations; good or bad. You don’t form any attachments because you notice that the sensations and thoughts are all constantly changing.
I have witnessed this change in my own emotions in real life.
Last week I had a therapy session in which I talked about many painful things that were so wrapped up in shame that I had never dared tell anyone before. They were hard things to talk about as they made me feel like I was such a bad person. My therapist as usual reacted in her very non-judgemental, compassionate and rational way. This gave me the space to utter these things and let them go. It felt good to finally talk about them and to hear that they were all a natural response to being sexually abused at such a young age.
The following day, I felt awful. I felt sick, and a heavy sadness took hold of my body. It was like I was seeing the world through a filter and I felt misunderstood and paranoid. I know that this was a result of the therapy session. At the time, it felt like I would feel that way forever.
But today is a new day and I am ok. Nothing lasts forver!