I have been doing so many new things lately and it’s been hard. Facing the fear and anxiety that fills me up until I feel like I can’t breathe anymore. Delving into the nervousness and feeling a sense that I am drowning in it….but still turning up. I think that is the secret, which sounds a lot like the old cliche of “feel the fear and do it anyway.” I guess there is a lot of truth to this old saying.
I have been going for interviews and dates and doing things that make me uncomfortable and uneasy because they are unfamiliar and out of my comfort zone. They are situations that have been pushing my boundaries and I wake up some mornings feeling like its all too much and too scary and I just want to stay in bed and hide all day….but I turn up anyway and face the fear. Once that fear is faced, there’s a new one waiting around the corner.
It’s a challenging time and I know things will settle, during this transition I hold onto myself closely and gently remind myself that I am more than capable of doing it all. I have everything I need right here within.That in just over a month, I have been settling my son into his new school, making our little flat into a home, going on dates, I have secured some part time work and I have been turning up everyday. The feelings sometimes feel overwhelmingly scary but they pass and make way for a new lightness each time.
So I leave you with this today. Feel the fear, drink it up until you feel like you are going to burst….and then turn up anyway!