Just because..

Just because I’m smiling doesn’t mean I am not hurting inside Just because I’m quiet doesn’t mean I have nothing to say Just because I’m soft spoken doesn’t mean I can’t roar with the fierceness of lions Just because I’m coping doesn’t mean I don’t need help sometimes Just because I’ve done brave things doesn’t…

Adding a boundary and a second skin

There is a kind of tough resilience to me now. A feeling deep within that whatever happens, I will be ok. I’ve been to these places so many times before. What’s different now is that I am so much more better equipped. The last time I went through all this, I was isolated and alone…

Pausing….

…..and doing what’s best for me Lately I’ve found myself pausing when confronted with choices. Little and big choices. I pause and think about how to respond. I reflect on how convenient it really is for me. On how the decision will affect me. My aunt asked if she could come over next Friday. I…

The correlation between childhood sexual abuse and pelvic floor dysfunctions

I know it’s a mouthful of a title today but it’s something I am living. Medical examinations have always been a traumatic experience for me. I have a history of avoidance when it comes to addressing medical issues. A lifetime of hiding things and hiding from things makes that possible. My ex used to look…

Invincible essence

Things aren’t the easiest at the moment, yet something deep within keeps me moving forward. Something I can’t see or hold; defying shape and form, but strong and invincible like a range of rocky mountains. Going to work everyday, teaching my classes, connecting with people. I keep going in spite of it all. That invincible…