Adding a boundary and a second skin

There is a kind of tough resilience to me now. A feeling deep within that whatever happens, I will be ok. I’ve been to these places so many times before. What’s different now is that I am so much more better equipped. The last time I went through all this, I was isolated and alone…

Integrating the anger

I had another interesting session today. I went in feeling very angry today; lots of anger bubbling under the surface with no place to go. It’s been a busy week and frustrating one too! I am angry with my ex for his lack of support, I am angry with a man I fancied for telling…

New Paths

It’s not easy to start a new life in a new place, make new friends, find a new job. So much ‘newness’ in such a short time. All the comfort and the familiarity of the old path has disappeared. It’s so easy to feel like you want to run back to the comfort of the…

Tough Days

I haven’t been posting regularly because I still don’t have a wireless connection at home but will hopefully have one by this evening. Wanted to update you and say that I do miss being on here. I miss your voices of warmth and comfort. I need those voices today more than ever. It’s been a…

Liar liar, your pants are on fire!

Following yesterday’s post Internet dating, there have been some interesting developments that I am sure you will be happy to hear about. Thank you to all the dear people who commented that I should keep safe and protect myself. You were right. He is indeed a scumbag!!!! I discovered that last night. I am feeling hurt…

Crazymaking- My mother says she didn’t know

As some of you are aware, I finally wrote to my mother to ask about the abuse. I wanted to hear her side of the story. Well she replied saying that she didn’t know that my father had sexually abused me when I was five. She insists that she didn’t know and said that how…